And that mistake -- you don't realize that it is a mistake till you knew it yourself that it is a mistake. And that mistake, too, bump you out real deep that you find it hard to forgive yourself. Has it happened to you that you cannot get yourself up after making a mistake? That you cannot accept the fact that you had done something terrible to yourself?
And that mistake you made, push you down very deep to the earth core. And it makes you feel like there's no way up -- that there's no way possible to get everything back to normal, again.
And that mistake has turned you to be someone so dark, someone so far away from positivity, someone bad. A bad person.
And, if those mistakes make you a 'bad person' or make you look like you are a 'bad person' or at least, make you feel like you are a 'bad person', do you not want to change -- to be a 'good person'?
To have yourself labeled as a 'bad person' isn't a good thing. Of course, we do not ask to be labeled as a good person, either. Because when we talk about 'bad person' and 'good person', we do not only talk about actions. We talk about some sorta inner being of who we, as a person, are.
Like for myself, when I was very depressed, and I have this friend who I find as very purposeful -- in her good actions and in her good behavior -- I thought she is a really good person. At her core, she is a good person. At my core, I am a bad person. And I will never be a good person so I'm just going to be bad. I finally found the guts to search for the elements that made me as a 'bad person' because I realize it was a very dangerous way to think about people or even myself. This is because not only you are completely disvaluing what these people are doing to be good, you are setting yourself up for never being able to improve.
And it's very self-destructive.
But, on the other hand, though, let's say that I do not regret doing mistakes, at all. That I am proud for the mistakes I did. And go proudly say, "I have no regrets. All the mistakes I had done make who I am today."
We can say whatever we want, but we know ourselves best. Do we, really, not feel guilty for the mistakes we did? Or at least, to feel the wanting to have ourselves improved or changed for the better?
Naturally, people are selfish, and they suck, too. Nah I am not saying that they can't do good. Because they can. But that's not in our nature. And why is that? Is it because it's just easier -- to do the wrong thing? -- because it is just more self-serving? Is it just more gratifying in a short term to do what is wrong and to do what is right?
Anyway, I don't know how to elaborate further on this whole being a bad person and a good person idea, but I guess I feel it is just worth pointing it out because I don't think that most people think about what they are implying when they refer to people as 'bad people' and 'good people'. I think it's a good idea to realize that, you know, most people just tend to suck. It is just easier to suck. And you can choose to not suck. When you feel like you're a bad person and you'll never be good, like... ugh. You know what. You have so much potentials to be a positive influence to the lives around you so do not get yourself to be labeled as a bad person.
For me, those people who always say 'I have no regrets. Those mistakes I did make who I am today' phrase are very defensive. For me, they live in the past. They choose to live in the past. They do not want to improve themselves. Heck. We do not want to be ignorant. We do not want to be arrogant.
You have to set yourself to be able to realize something is a mistake. But then you go say, 'Yes, it is a mistake. We know it's a mistake. But there are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake, but you don't really know it's a mistake, because the only way to really know that it's a mistake is to make the mistake, and look back and say, "Yep, that was a mistake."'
So you suppose, 'Really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then, you would go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not.'
But we do not have forever, DO WE?
We know something is a mistake. It leads us to wrongful consequences. Be grateful that you have it -- the sense to realize that something is a mistake. Because somebody else may does not. Regret. Only by regretting we can meet improvements. You would be ashamed of yourself because regrets teach us lesson to not repeat the mistake. When somebody happens to ask you about your past -- about your mistakes, answer them "I'm grateful for the mistakes I had done. Because somehow, it is one of God's ways to teach me about something. But if it happens to me that I get to face the same situation, I will pray so that in each and every way the situations meet the similarities, I could do better than before." - KF.
So, think. We do not live in the same stage, same phase everyday. We age. Those in the graves are wanting to be given life to change and correct the mistakes they had done in their lives. So how about you?
Change, before it's
In the end of the day, you are what you do. And actions speak louder than words. You are not what you have done, or what you will do, or what you intend to be doing. You are what you are doing.
Cheers for betterment!